With Love

Date: June 2004

WITH LOVE

Mattie minimized the window of her computer that had the picture of the man she'd been tentatively conversing with. They'd been matched through an on-line service. He seemed nice enough, from the indirect communication they'd had this day, but was she ready to initiate an open communication?

Opening her mail program she went in search of a different photo, of a different man. She didn't expect to find it...she'd forgotten he was kind enough to resend it after her computer crashed. It was the first picture she'd ever seen of him.

Mattie started to cry as she looked at his image. She created a new message and began composing an e-mail she knew she'd never send.

Eric –
Scott is the name of the 'match' that asked for some
communication. He seems nice enough I guess. Who
knows, maybe something lasting could come of it, in
time- but I don't want him. I want you.
I know...I know. But that doesn't change the
way I feel. As much as I would give anything to be the
one you wanted, what can I do, right? Try to find the
next best thing I guess. It sure sucks though.
I hate this you know. Trying to find someone else.

Mattie looked over what she'd typed. She wiped away her tears and deleted half of it. She read over the new message:

Eric –
Scott is the name of the 'match' that asked for some
communication. He seems nice enough I guess. Who
knows, maybe something lasting could come of it, in
time... Wish me luck.
With love,
Mattie

She looked one last time at the photo of Eric and hit send.

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